Thursday, August 26, 2010

Tentens. (First "Official" Photoshoot) AND breastfeeding: this is really hard...

Dude, this kid came hungry. No, hungry doesn't actually even BEGIN to sum it up. He came starving. I might even dare say that he came equipped with a full-fledged over-eating disorder. It is killing me. He drains both sides, and then, 30 minutes later, he is crying and rooting around for more. My boobs hurt so bad... I honestly feel like I am going to die. It was NEVER like this with Kort. I wasn't at all prepared for this. It got so bad today, that I would latch him on, curl my toes, stifle a scream so as not to scare my little guy, and then cry through the whole 40 minute nursing session. He REFUSES to (okay, or just plain can't) latch on to my right side properly, so it stings and burns the. whole. time. he. nurses. It is mind blowing. To add to the melting pot of insanity, my hormones are making me nuttier than a squirrel turd, and my house looks like a bomb went off (which also makes me want to bawl).

Then, in an effort to lift my spirits, I do a mini photo shoot with Tentens...then I edit the images while he sleeps on my chest...and I feel like everything is going to be okay...and I'm reminded that all of the pain, and stress, and exhaustion is totally worth it... because the opportunity to raise this darling little person is so, so choice. In fact, it is all I have wanted. (And yes, I still even want to do it again...and possibly again after that.) I sure love him. He is growing so, so fast. He is already interacting with us in the most satisfying ways. Looking intently into our eyes, smiling, squeaking, yawning... it's all so great. So, without further ado, I give to you:
Our delicious Mr. Tentens.

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16 comments:

Serline said...

Hey, Lola, if it's any consolation, every baby is different. Here're my horror stories: Janelle was a premature baby, but when she finally left the oxygen box, she sucked so hard I actually bled. The whole family freaked out when my hubby burped her and she spat out some "red milk"; we were quite relieved that the blood was from me and not from inside of her. She gave me such a phobia that I only lasted 4 months breastfeeding Andre. And with Narelle, my right is dry and I have been feeding exclusively from the left breast for the past 19 months. Ever tried to hide a pair of lopsided boobs? Anyway, hang in there... have a blessed weekend!

Avie said...

Hi Lola,
Congratulations to all of you. This happy, healthy little man is gorgeous. Just look at those feet! He's looks like he's a strong one! Great first photo shoot. With lots of love. xx

PS. Do you guys get Kamillosan over in the states? ;)
http://kamillosan.co.uk/

Barbaloot said...

That is a very darling baby.

And speaking of which, I went to my dad's new office open house yesterday. While I'm wandering around, who should I see pictures of plastered all over one wall? You! What the heck? Since when are you an OB/GYN model? :) And can I just say, you picked the best office around.

TerresaE said...

I've been super busy lately and unable to ready any blogs. Just came back today and was rewarded with Mr. Tenten's first photo shoot. He's beautiful!

LMS said...

He's beautiful and so worth the wait. Sorry about the lactating issues, they can be frustrating but hang in there.

Aubry Macbean said...

Ethan was a very diffrent eater then Mackenzie. Mackenzie I was a little sore for about a month. Ethan however had problems sucking and eating. Sucked both sides raw. Really I bled on both nipples. It was three months before that was healed up. The only advice I can give is lots of Lansinoh. Change feeding possions every time. And what someone finally told me that I think helped most of all let them air out as much as possible. Before feeding, while your feeding, and after your done feeding. Any time you do not have to cover them up don't. It was weird at first but I really think that is what helped me finally start healing. Hope you feel better soon. He sure is cute.

Ashley said...

Oh my goodness he has got some long, skinny toes! Lol Love them! And I just love that little face. So sweet.
Yeah- the first few weeks of nursing are horrible! I can remember it so clearly with Sayda! They way you described it is exactly how it feels! I remember curling my toes and letting out a little scream! The good thing is that it won't hurt for much longer! Hang in there! ;)

Banford Family said...

Hang in there, girl! You are an awesome momma and I PROMISE it won't be that way for much longer! sending you love!

Lee Ann said...

Great photo shoot and great story about the nursing saga. Babies are all different, especially when it comes to nursing. It's been a lifetime ago, but I still remember....Brittney and Derek were la-tee-da lazy, slow nursers. Beth was a barracuda (I still have the scars to prove it) and Dane was starving all the time (sounds just like your story). He nursed all the time (maybe that's why he is 6'4")...So watch out for growth spurts, cause just when you turn around or blink, they grow to be taller than you. Enjoy every minute. Lots of love to you and your boys (including Kyle).

Lisa Miller said...

Yep, that pretty much scared me out of ever having kids! ;)
Love his little outfit. It makes him look so snuggly.
Hope you feel better soon!

BRIAN AND BROOKE said...

I hear you about the breastfeeding.. I had hard time with both kids! Hang in there, it will pass. I am sure some days seems so long right now...cause they did with me when breastfeeding wasnt going well....but YOU CAN DO IT! I actually even went to some Breastfeeding classes....and it helped out a lot.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the pictures!!! Watch out...next time you look down at him all a sudden he will have teeth and will be crawling! It all happens TO FAST!

Blackwell said...

Oh I love the outfit ;) I can't believe it used to fit on my sassy almost three year old boy! ..and don't worry the pain will really die down soon and then it will just be pure snugly, cuddly, baby love time ;) PLEASE call me if you want me to come help clean your house or help with any thing, Bry can watch the kids any night or weekend. love ya

Ashley Koz said...

Seriously tearing up, he is gorgeous!!! Just thinking about everything you have gone through to have this perfect little baby now and looking at those photos makes me well up. I can totally relate with the nursing, the first 2 weeks with Crew were hell for me. Then I got a pump and my life got a lot better instantly. The main reason I pumped was because Crew was not a good latcher either. If its killing you you may want to consider pumping. They are still getting breast milk and you can get some sanity back. You can borrow mine if you want.

Mandy said...

The pictures make me want another baby (because he's so FREAKING cute how could you not!?!) but the breastfeeding story made me remember that I had one of those babies and how bad it hurt and I'm good again with my 3 monkeys!

The pain is the worst at the beginning. Sometimes it goes away, sometimes it doesn't... But I remember the bleeding boobies, toe curling, 'crying the whole time he's eating because it hurt so bad' feedings.I totally feel for you...

I pumped and it did seem to get easier. Also, when it was my little guy, I substituted a bottle of formula once a day. The formula seemed to help him feel more full than I could.

You're doing a great thing and you are wonderful to remember that. :)

Tezzie said...

He's gorgeous, Lola...those cute little feet and toes are to die for! :D

crowley said...

OMG he is so beautiful and yes you can call a boy that. Congrats, so jealous. Try using vitamin E oil on you it helps so you dont dry out an eases the pain, you can do it. --Robyn